Oh ya, I have a blog.

It’s been so long since I have written a blogpost I had to reset my password and log in three times to get to the DRAFT page. WordPress has completely revamped its site and I have no clue where anything is.

New Years resolution – POST ONCE A WEEK. So far I am not doing so well…

So, what’s keeping me so busy?

Still chasing after these two little monsters. I got a fitbit for Christmas and quickly realized I only sit down to use the bathroom, and even that needs to be fast because little humans love to watch big humans poop.

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These two fuel my happy everyday. They are so funny, curious and exhausting. I have just accepted it. I do more laundry than I ever thought possible and spend the majority of my day making meals, cleaning the kitchen, picking up toys and pillows and diapers and wiping down everything (including butts). While somedays I feel like I barely make it through alive, I know one day I will look back and miss this insane time in my life. Plus, look how cute they are.

I made the decision not to go back to work. It wasn’t that difficult. Childcare in this city would have cost us over $4,000/month for two kids. I truthfully just couldn’t afford to go back. (I feel like something is seriously wrong with this, but that is another post.) I am happy to be home with the kids, and feel very lucky to be able to do so.

I am finally working towards getting my Real Estate licence. It’s something I have always been interested in but never felt I had the time for. For the record, I still don’t have the time for it, but I couldn’t keep putting it off. It should be about 8 more months before I am finished the six courses. Hopefully sooner, but I am trying to be realistic.

It has been really refreshing to have an excuse to get out of the house, alone. It’s so nice to walk into a Starbucks without a door slamming into my stroller and finish a chai latte while it’s still hot. I have tried to study at home… I haven’t had much success, unless the kids are sleeping in their cribs.

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This was the first Christmas in our new house! We have lived here owned it for two years but we spent Christmas in Calgary with my family last year. It was so nice to be home this year. Bennett is starting to get the idea of Santa and the holidays… I think?

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He asked for an Alligator from Santa… I HAVE NO IDEA WHY. We randomly found this in a bin at Walmart (and told Santa right away). I think Bennett was pretty shocked/terrified coming down in the morning to a giant stuffed gator. Norman is family now.

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This past year hasn’t left a lot of time for ‘me’. I really haven’t made much of an effort, I was classifying studying time as “me time”, but I don’t think that counts. I know a lot of moms struggle with this. There is this strange guilt that creeps in whenever I try to do anything for myself. So what am I doing about it?

2017 NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS

Fitness – So cliche I know, but for real. I switched gyms. This was hard because I absolutely LOVE the Les Mills classes Goodlife offered, but I just couldn’t get there. I joined a gym within walking distance, the same one my husband belongs too.

BONUS: Day care is $10/month for two minis. WOW.

DOWNFALL: Berlin picked up Hand Foot Mouth last week and we have been house bound since.

That mom guilt I was talking about, it hit me like a truck when the doctor told me she probably picked it up from the gym daycare. Luckily I have amazing mom friends who reminded me that most kids get sick when they start daycare, it is what it is. We’ll be back.

TV and Wine – Ok, so I don’t really know what to call this one, and it’s likely not making an appearance on many resolution lists this year. Does this make up for my lame NY fitness goals? Anyway, I am resolving to have one night a week where I allow myself to completely check out. Open a bottle of red and just watch TV that is bad for my brain, but oh so good for my soul. (OK The Bachelor and Vanderpump Rules are probably not good for my soul but it does allow me to reflect on how much I love my friends and family, that counts, right?)

The point is I don’t want to feel guilty about these unproductive hours supporting Trash TV. So I won’t. Plus I will mix in Grey’s Anatomy, Scandal and How to Get Away with Murder. (I have some serious catching up to do on the latter two.)

Hot Mom – OK you just rolled your eyes, or puked in your mouth… so did I. But I really need to get back on this look good, feel good train. This means, wearing socks without holes, a real bra (I can do that now that I am officially done breastfeeding), washing my hair with actual shampoo (not just the dry spray), taking 5 minutes to wash my face and apply some sort of make up. Actually styling my hair will be a little more challenging, as will wearing clothes I like. I hate spending money on myself (mom guilt… again???) and I’d rather board a plane with 2 toddlers than take a trip to the mall.

Ever noticed how people with their nails done just look like they have their shit together? I want to be one of those people.

Writing – I forgot how much I loved blogging, and following other blogs. I thought becoming a mom would inspire me to blog more, share ups and downs, and connect with other moms. The opposite happened and it dropped completely off of my priority list.

If you are still reading this I am super impressed, thanks! If you have a blog, please leave it in the comments below, I’d love to check it out!

To Fueling Happy, mom-guilt free, in 2017.

xo Nicoleimg_2219

 

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